I'm so happy right now.

It's 11pm and I said I'd be in bed by 9:30 so I could be up by 6am. Haha I have 2 assignments due next week to which I haven't started either.. But I'm so happy, that I actually just shed a tear.

I'm probably too happy. I want to forget about this tomorrow because being too happy is also a problem.

I'm just going to say this:

E said he's going to marry me. Called me his wife tonight. I don't care if he hooks up with a million girls and has sex with 5.. 6 and that's pushing it. Haha, but we're a thing. Fuck we're so forever. Like I haven't found a quote yet that describes us because.. We do fight. We do go through times of unbelievable sexual tension in which nothing is done. We have sex sometimes. We don't talk about liking/loving each other above family level. We openly say and know we're going to get married and have kids together. We tell each other about every experience with the other sex. We don't get jealous. We always hate each others gf/bf. We know every secret. We've cried together. We've grown up together. We haven't talked for months at a time. We don't live in the same place. We hold hands. We could spend 3 weeks in each others pockets and yet in the 70 minutes of Chinese I've punched him before. I don't know / haven't heard / haven't thought about anything even remarkably close to us.

That's the way I like it. And its the reason I like it. We're just us. Even those words are wrong ^. It's a feeling. It's just like, happiness you know?

No, you don't know. Fuck off, no one knows us because we're too epic whilst together.

He's mine. x

Remember this.

You're drunk and its 8:11am on a Saturday.

You're listening to "She will be loved" by Maroon 5.

You're not crying, you're not upset with anything. You've just had a great night actually.

You're chest hurts though, from the longing that you can't hug him.

You're only thinking about that moment that he comes home and your life will be absolutely complete for even just one second.

You're so grateful that you have him.

You miss him so much.

You know its real love.

..

This feeling can't be forgotten, because I want to be as happy as I look in my head when he comes home, one whole year from now.

I had a really nice day today. Was so ridiculously hung over this morning / still drunk at work at 8am. Significant conversation:

Ken: Really Charli did you get any sleep last night?

Me: I'm just so sad. I'm never fucking sad and right now.. It's weird.

Ken: *a bit taken back* the alcohol?

Me: I don't know man, but it sucks hard arse.

Do you think alcohol can make you sad? Like I was so so so sad this morning. And then I had a coffee and I felt hyper, but also happy again. Like normal.. It was stranger than anything.

Tahnee's was so fun. So so fun. I love her friends / her. Sug's sucked. Eth sucks. Everyone sucks in those groups. I want a new boyfi right now. Muzz is adores, we spoke for ages tonight <3. Preeee cute.

I looked really good last night though. Like actually beautiful, it was weird. Tanned as fudge atm too. Just a really good day to start the week I think. :)

Scattered as fuck, Charles.

My life for the past 2 weeks.

I've started university.

My first lecture I had to sit on the floor and made friends with an amazing voiced American girl. My 2nd there was a flash mob and I felt ridiculously comfortable sitting by myself and taking my own notes. I was late to Art History but fell madly in love with a piece called "The Third of May". Ironic that it was also my 3rd class. And my final subject, Chinese Written, I absolutely bossed. I didn't really not know anything because I actually was deeply in love with the work at highschool. No matter how much I cheated in exams.

I'm planting seeds.
Muzz is a buff buff man. So ridiculously buff, like wow. At first he was plain. Really into TV shows and the disney channel. Eats maccas twice a week and didn't have a job. But I kept talking and he.. He has a 4 year old brother and is weirdly family orientated. He loves food and understands childhood better than anyone I know. Talking to him is like talking to my sister, but still getting to know how they work. We've only been chatting for the past 2 weeks, but we've been friends since Grade 11 camp. He says I'm lovely :).

Tomtom Sammidy Sam is a 19 year old nerd I met at the World's Biggest Toga Party. We kissed that night, but he's made no suggestion in meeting again. Occasionally we text for the whole day, but he doesn't know any of my friends by name / neither do I him. Its like a classical friendship. Where we'll never meet again / remember what he looks like but we're friends? It's weird atm.

Zachary moved to Perth. :(.

My gurls be like:

Tahn is the first customer from work I've had lunch with. Also the first open lesbian I've met and talked sex with. Hahaha I'm not planting a seed with her, but I'm going to her 18th this weekend. Nerds are so much fun to hang with !


Holly came down from Tville. Still a complete retard, still got no idea about money or responsibility.. But she's the freshest piece of life to come in and out of my life. Fuwwark she's the funnest and most interesting person I could ever chill with. Ever ever. I don't want her to grow up everrr. I even hate how she's stopped wearing snapbacks, cause that was part of her bossing outlook on life. There's love with her. ♥


I'm just chilling, nakies talking to boys and eating nutella on toast.
- Charles.