Yeah so I was wrong about him. I was wrong in every way. That's why it hurts so much..
All our photos together, all our "funny" times. He just loved being with a hot chick. I was hot. I am hot. I mean, people want to be with me for no reason. Because I'm hot and fun and I make everyone look good.
For him, I'm the best person on his record by far.. And I'm now the dumb slut that just cheated on him.
But like, I'm destined for such a bigger better world. I love the world and everything in it. I love people and art and music and life. I'm interested in everything and I mean truly interested. I waste time with everyone because I honestly think everyone is interesting.. Eth though, he doesn't think about anything. I thought he was interesting, I thought he was MORE than interesting, but in actual fact that's just me playing on me.
I've never really liked someone and had a thing with them.. Eth was my first. My first to stay after one night, the first to want my high status and looks, the first to lie blankly to my face and say I was funny / cool / interesting. He told the truth when he said I was hot / beautiful / pretty. Those were the truth. Because that's why he was with me. It breaks me to realise, but I definitely realise.
Awesome. Moving on time please. I'm going to do so much more with my life, like wow.
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