//cry.

I want E to be here. I just want to talk to him face to face, I want to see how he acts when I act pretty. And I want to lie next to him and do nothing. I want to meet these people he's talking about and go shopping and help him do his class prep. I want to punch him in the shoulder and make every face instantly. I want to get naked at night and joke with him. I want to actually laugh at his jokes instead of laughing too loudly just so the webcam can pick it up. I don't want to be on my bed, by myself, when the boy I'm going to marry is on the other side of the world wishing he was here. I only needed to be there for 2 weeks.. 1 day would've done it. I would've been right for a while. But I'm not right just yet. And I'm not going to be alright with just skype. I want him right now. And for a long time. Wah.

This song is getting me through, cause it's beautiful and doesn't remind me of him.